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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Setember 16
Copneelius and Cyprian
I Cor. 12:12-12-14, 27-31; Lk. 7:11-17
Jesus is surrounded by people in the gospel, people everywhere, but he focuses on the need at hand, on the most immediate need. we tend to try to look at the big picture, when what is most important is at hand. we look at "how many we can serve", rather than the "one at hand".
had a meeting of the tenderloin health fair task force; had lunch with jeff cheifex, cooked meal, served meal; people are always pushing me when i am cooking, but no one seems to understand how much work it is, and how i am serving sometimes a hundred people, people who have not eaten much during the day, and how it is important, and how i have to put my time into its preparation and serving. went to opera with peter, but could only stay for one half, had spent day cooking, dealing with people throughout, there comes a time when i just can not take people and pressure any more. i have to have the time alone and away from the noise. people do not often understand how i have to call it quits from going places and from being surrounded by people, but my life is constantly surrounded by people, and i just need the space. it is easy for people with 9-5 jobs to see their job as being done at the end of the day, but my job as long as i am in the area is never done. there is always someone needing something, someone in my face, and i work at night. i need to be more clear on my boundaries with people is all. deo gratis! thanks be to God!
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008
September 15
(Heb. 5:7-9; Lk. 2:33-35
Our Lady of Sorrows
technilocally my day off, but oh well, food bank, dinner with garrett, home to take stephen, 23, to the hospital, he was really in terrible mood, demanding. people often asked me how it must be nice to have people love me and nice to me all the time, and you know i realize how naive people are when it comes to working with people. Jesus understood, he suffered daily, and he died because of his working with people. the way of the cross is working with people, walking with them in their daily struggles and putting up with their bull shit, and their pain. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!
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Monday, September 15, 2008
September 14
Triumph of Cross
Num. 21:4-9; Phil 2:6-11; Jn. 3:13-17
i am still suffering from a terrible cold, blogger is not working, feel horrible. Jesus lifted like snake in the air and like snake in wilderness to remind us to trust in God in the face of death, and that God over comes evil. death, what we all fear. went to farewell for bernie gavin, very sad to see her go, very sad. i am depressed rightr now, sadness over the fragility oflife, its uncertainness, my eyes on the cross, keeps me stable. styx came by. still has terrible abscess. bed at midnight. deo gratis! thanks be to God!
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
September 13
I Cor. 10:14-22; Lk. 6:43-49
i am feeling really lousy, cold, pain. stayed in most of day. went out for a couple of hours. nigel, 22 talked of his boy friend who is abusive, and how is hates being "alone", and how he is mistreated, brain 28 talks of his ten years out here working polk street. i think of the shortness of life, and i feel like hell tonight, have to go to bed. deo gratis! thanks be to God!
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