I have been down the coast since monday. spent tuesday watching law and order svi marathon and thursday nypd blue marathan. rested, totally rested. the moment i walked down the street i had people at my door. v wanted supper, k, wanted "your time", and so on. What i noticed after being a way was how the whole world here revolves around drugs. relationships are all see as serving their needs. every guy i talked to talked of wanting a r relationship, but each one wants someone to be totally there for them and to take care of them. rs callled from prison and is getting out, same cycle he has repeated for eight years.
for me the past four days has also been a time of retreat, and as i entered the new year i am more and more aware of my mortality and how ultimately only God matters. we spend the first part of our lives driving ourselves to get educated and a good job and in the end we come down to God, those things that are lasting. And so as i took a walk late new years night along the beach and saw the stormy waves i felt like a speck in the ocean of God, who flows in for awhile on the shore and then in a short time flows back out into the allness of God. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!
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