(all names are pseudyms). i have been trying to take the last two days off, but as long as i remain here it is impossible. people just swarm me for food and needles. My friend, "Great Warrier" called night before last. he is 19, comes from wealth, and is spending his summer just having fun. he was depressed, felt his life was empty. we talked about how money, and fun can not fill our lives with the meaning we so often seek. he is searching for something beyond the shallowness of our consumeristic society. and then we had "little zeus", who is 19 exchanging needles this morning. long history of mental health issues, wanting money, actually attention--all the faces of Christ, which i remind myself of rather often. ame
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Sunday, July 27, 2003
last night was simply wild--19 year old death was screaming at my door she had lost everything; demanding; 18 year old justin was in and out needy, wanting mostly attention. the streets were full of drunks, and people using speed. spent time with this 12 year old girl who is homeless and was high on speed, she was just flying. God must simply shake her head when he sees how much pain our freedom of choice costs us. the wizard in "Lord of Rings" told froto: "our job is to choose how we spend our time here, and then do it." my time is to be spent in ministry with those who hurt so much. and there are no regrets. deo gratis
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